New Song?

After getting the inspiration for the lyrics below, I have come to realize that my creativity is most inspired by strong emotions.  While I wish I was inspired with happy, positive emotions as I sat in Relief Society, unfortunately, on this day, I was inspired with some pretty harsh thoughts.  I'd like some feedback on the lyrics to my potential song, so feel free to comment below.

Human Hypocrites

Sitting here in this hard, cold chair,
I'm listening to you preach
I'm listening to you teach me how to be "better."
But you fail to understand my context.
I feel like you can't see my past
and can't ever get my reasons
for the choices I've made.
The choices you're preaching against.


Aren't we all hypocrites?
Don't we all fail to reach our pure ideals?
Don't we all say things we don't mean at least sometimes?
Don't we all do things we regret later?
Aren't we all human?
Aren't we all hypocrites?

The good news is that we can keep trying.
God doesn't give up on us.
He made us into humans
and he made a way for us to fix our mistakes.

Someday we won't all be
frail and fragile humans.
Someday we won't all be
hypocrites.
But today is not that day.

Today I am a hypocrite.
Today I'm feeling human
and all I need is
for you to stop your talking
And put your arms around me
And love me like
I am perfect.

Because aren't we all hypocrites?
Don't we all fail to reach our pure ideals?
Don't we all say things we don't mean at least sometimes?
Don't we all do things we regret later?
Aren't we all human?
Aren't we all hypocrites?

 I don't have the music down on paper yet.  But I could hear it.  For years I've wanted to write lyrics to songs and the lyrics finally came to me WITH the music this time.  It's a first and something I feel is worth celebrating.  Wahoo!  The music sounded like Alanis Morissette mixed with Mindy Gledhill.  It was spiritual and yearning and somewhat calm, but with the undertones of a jaded and hurt person.  I've never wished I could play the piano so badly because if I could, I felt like I may have been able to play the chords and hear where the song was going.  Hopefully, I can learn the piano soon and start to write more songs!

Can I Use Your Phone?

While I was eating dinner in the University Mall before my shift at Forever 21, I was reading a book called "A Conversation with God."  It's an interesting book that documents a man's personal revelations.  While most of the main points agree with Mormon doctrines, somethings are a bit off.  But it's an interesting read nonetheless. As I was contemplating the vast expanse of the universe and God's booming voice, I was suddenly approached by the young man I had bought my dinner from.

"Hi," he said.

"Hello,"  I replied with a smile.

"I was just wondering if I could use your phone."

"Oh, well, sure," I stammer, "I mean, the problem is that whatever number you dial, you have to save it first because my phone is a little ghetto."  I have a feeling I've explained too much as he replies.

"That's not a problem.  I was just going to call God and tell him that I've found one of his angels."

You can imagine how big my smile was.  I beamed.  I felt so unique, so special, like a treasure.  And it's not that I know this guy, or that he even knows me.  Or even that we'll become best friends and then fall in love and get married.  None of those possibilities matter.  But what is significant is that he would take the time to lift me up and remind me that people are kind and aware of others (despite what we sometimes believe about this world being cold and cruel). 

And so I learned something.  Maybe it is that easy to reach God.  Maybe all we have to do is pick up the phone and dial.  I know it's been a while since I took the time to listen, so I believe this was just God's way of leaving me a message.

** Update on this experience.  One of my friends was working in the same mall a few months later and had this exact same conversation.  I guess I fell for a tried and true practice at least!  Hahahahahha  Life is interesting!